So I think we can all agree, I’m not so good at this whole blogging thing. However, I have a lot more free time so perhaps this will open up the opportunity for more content OR the lack of activity will cause even more space and time between my blog posts. Either way, it’s almost 2am, today is my 37th Birthday and I feel inclined to pour out my heart.
It’s no doubt the past two years or so have been a struggle, pregnancy loss, job changes, increased pain and decreased physical mobility, we also buried two of my Grandparents months apart, and 2020 is the year of COVID-19 and the great toilet paper recession.
So what’s really going on? I’m here another year older, more in love than ever with my husband, “retired”, yep you read that right. After nearly 20 years working with children in multiple capacities, due to health, Adam and I decided it was best for me to step back from working and focus on pain management and treatment. That’s another post for another time…
I’m grateful for friends/ family who understand my sensitivity because they are the same too, but I appreciate being able to pour out my heart and receive helpful support in return.
My current struggle is finding my sense of self and purpose. Now don’t get me wrong, my faith is not faltering and I know God has plans for myself and for Adam and I as a unit. (Jeremiah 29:11)
The hard part is waiting, for a sign, a bright lit up arrow, or billboard pointing me directly at what I need to see. Perhaps it’s not that easy, maybe it is. I guess as I’m typing this out I’m realizing I already have the answers, time to crack open my Bible and get some answers.
Wow, WordPress, this was the most inexpensive therapy session I’ve ever attended, so you accept BCBS? Lol
Age is nothing but a number, 37 is no big deal, especially since people are still telling me I look 25…ha, take that genetics. No, but in all seriousness, I’m blessed beyond measure, I’m cherished by my husband, highly favored by my God, and tolerated by our two cats…what more could a girl want?
Thanks for reading this and going on this journey with me, and don’t worry I’m not gonna drag you through some Eat, Pray, Love stuff. This is just a girl, and her Bible. So let’s see what we discover!
Side note: October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, please check on your friends and family, and kindly remember, this loss affects men too.
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